About:
Sadness

The emotion of sadness...It is the negative emotional energy I abosrb when I am around people who act depressed, sad(duh?), as if in grief, heartbroken, etc. The list goes on, but to me it's the same type of energy. Once absorbed, and usually in large amounts, it starts to affect me(i.e. I become sad to for no reason at all). Then it intensifies. The emotional heart starts to twist and churn and turns the energy into emotional pain. This kind of pain pools in the heart and makes it hurt like hell. This reduces the positive energy that I and my other selves are able to use up. The pain only dissipates when I can absorb happiness. It only dissipates, not disappears, so there is always a small twinge of emotional pain caused by sadness in me, or should I say us.

Maybe this explains why I try to keep the mood light wherever I am when it seems too gloomy or quiet or emo or just plain sad. Maybe this explains why I let my other selves loose during those times. To lighten up the mood. To make people laugh. To make my own emotional pain smaller and more insignificant.

And maybe because...I've already felt too much sadness, too much pain. Because of too many things I've lost and of too many sad moments I have witnessed.

I am writing this in the hopes that one may come to understand such an existence as my own, or should I say our own.